Note to Self
I had planned to write this blog post a long time ago.
But I have been continually putting it off whilst saying to myself: “the next free day I get, I’m going to write something.” Obviously that hasn’t happened, until now.
So here I am sitting in front of my laptop with something to write, a reminder of sorts, to myself and to everyone else who needs to hear it, that God loves you. It’s funny because as often as I remind myself of this truth, I’ve got a feeling I will be continuing to remind myself of this for the rest of my life.
In my walk with Christ, I have good days, I have great days and then there are bad days when I simply cannot fathom why God loves me. I just don’t understand how God can truly love me. I can’t help but wonder, what have I done to deserve this?
In fact, when I try to make a list of the reasons that God would choose to love me, I struggle to find any. I mean sure I’ve done good things since I was saved, and yes I try my best to follow God’s standard and abide by his commandments in my life.
But have I really been living according to his sinless standard? Absolutely not. Can I ever live as Christ so perfectly lived? No chance.
Despite my imperfection, God still loves me. He reminds me throughout his word.
In Zephaniah chapter 3 verse 17 it says:
“The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exalt over you with loud singing.”
Each time I read this verse, it makes me stop and pause. Hang on a second, God rejoices over me? Is it just me, or is this a sentence that should be read backwards.
Verb: To rejoice- is to feel or show great joy or delight.
If anything, I should be the one that is rejoicing in the Lord, that is overcome with joy and delighting in his presence. But his love is so vast that he is the one who is rejoicing over me. The image of God that is described in this verse is absolutely amazing.
It makes me think of a conversation I had with a friend of mine who asked me this question: “what has God been working on with you this recently?” Looking back on it now, the answer I gave back then didn’t quite match up with how I would answer the question if I got a chance to do it now.
What God has been working on with me since pretty much the first day I started my relationship with him, is accepting his love. This is something that I tend to struggle with. Feelings of shame and quilt are something I go through a lot.
You see I am a follower of Jesus and I want to be like him. That is my goal and I try my best to fulfil it.
1 John is one of my favourite books in the New Testament. In chapter two there is a verse that I really cherish and hold close to my heart.
Verse 6 says this:
“Whoever says he abides in him ought to walk in the same way in which he walked.”
This is what I want for my life. I want to walk in the same way in which Jesus did.
But no matter how hard I try, I always seem to come up short. You see because of my sinfulness, I can never truly match up to God’s standards.
Sure I can try my best to live like Jesus and walk in the same way in which he did. But I am not perfect and so I’m going to make mistakes along the way.
However, Jesus is perfect. He died so that I can live and it is his death and resurrection which covers my sinfulness.
One verse that stood out for me this week and what could have been the spark for me writing this blog post, didn’t come from my daily bible reading, it came in fact from going to the cinema.
Yes God does work in mysterious ways, it took a trip to the movies for me to realise that it’s probably about time I went ahead with my idea of writing a blog post!
I went to see ‘The Imitation Game’ with my sister (a movie that is well worth watching if you get a chance). In the film, a particular bible verse was mentioned and it really hit home with me.
It is taken from the Gospel of Matthew, as Jesus is teaching on the mount. Chapter 7, verse 7 says this:
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”
Perfect. This teaching is perfect. Jesus does a better job explaining this than I than I ever could.
The thing about God’s precious gift of love is that it doesn’t come with a price tag or terms and conditions, his love is completely free.
So whether you are like me have a hard time accepting that God loves you or whatever it is that you are struggling with, Jesus says asks and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened.
Whoever you are, wherever you are reading this from, you should know this: God loves you.